okay, i know this is gonna sound scary
but i really do have the thought of slitting myself and die.
it's really so hard to go on with my life anymore.
it's all filled with test and test and test
all the lecturers and bosses want from me is to see if im flexible enough!
come on la, enough is enough
i really cannot take all of it anymore
i felt so despair
so what if everyone tells me not to give up
so what if everyone tells me that it's gonna be okay
so what if everyone tells me to go on with life with a smile
WHAT MAKES YOU THINK THAT IT'S SOOOOO EASY
no matter what i do now seems to be wrong
i seems to be offending everyone around me
everything seems to go on and on and on
nobody gives me a break from everything
troubles keeps coming and coming
i cannot breath anymore
everyone is aching
im feeling so hurt
other than telling it to my blog
there's no other place i can do it anymore
why can't anyone gives me a chance to do what i want!
enough nonsense at work, right at home
i still must listen to my parents grumbles
when will everything end
when will i have my internal peace.
WHERE HAS MY PEACE GONE
please someone deaf me please
please someone blind me please
so i can hear no more
so that i can see no more
so noisy so noisy
everyone is so noisy
go away

j xfou up uif epdups
jp hpjoh up nffu nz mfduvsf uns!
jp pggjdbmmz tvggfsjoh gspn tfsjpvt tljo bmmfsgz!

i hope that everything will be fine real soon.
thanks love and xianglin for the really great help
if i can get approval tmr, everything will be even more perfect.
real the email i send you two.

goodbye tvdlt up nby dpnqboz gvdl!.

i made a guy pregnant. and it's a girl

xoxo
R

seriously,
i almost pee my pants.
always, i always thought that only colony of insects can fear me out.
im not really scare of flying insects, liazrds and blahblahblah.
BUT NOW, IM REALLY SCARED OF CROWS!

IM NO FAN OF BIRDY WITH BLACK WINGS AND YELLOW LONG BECKS!

this crazy crow flew into my house AND BANG THE WALL.
this black shadow just flew past my eyes, while im eating my pizza.
i swear, I SCREAMMMMMMM MY LUNGS OUT.
i just keep screaming and screaming. non-stop.
and it flew to the dustbin.
JUST RIGHT OUTSIDE MY ROOM. MY SISTA'S ROOM.
it flip and flap, each time.
i scream! or we both scream.
I COMICALLY THREW BROOM AT IT,
FLIP AGAIN.
i called dad, mum, d
last, andrew!
my neighbour, my saviour man!
he and his dad got the crow out!
finally!
Oh, before it flew out. It bang the wall yet, again.

but, im still. . . .
AFRAID. )):

time doesn't wait for anyone right,
not even me!
4days just zoomzoom past like that.
there goes my 4days of mc!
kinda sad, but at least i kinda got replenish with energy. not lots.
cos im dreaded to do something i don't like.
but it's not within what i can do, to help with.
thus, to make life better. accept it.
im not like some people who doesn't seem to care at all,
kinda used to good life already.
(shhh, don't tell people im pamper stubborn da xiao jie.).
okayy, i enjoyed my rest days with someone.

and finally enhua is back.
OKAY, LISTEN BROTHER. I LOVE THE G-s. so don't think so much okay.
<3

Goodnight dIary,
Sun kisses.