star star star
so the fast la,2007 just ZOOM, tata, and 2008 is just outside my doorsteps.
so many things happen in this 1 year.
ups and downs.
family
funs,loves and laughters just covered up all the scoldings and unhappiness
my cousins
more contacts and more understandings
new friends made in thai accent,bossini
we still keep in contact,discounts are still avaliable,misunderstandings are cleared,hope everything will just carry on and goes on (: (: (: (: (:
old friendship are bonded even tightly
just wanna to understand and love you peeps more la,PLEASE DON"T NEGLECT ME!
new friends made in ngee ann,come and go
but i still love thoses new good friends in class most <3>moon-ney,mingyi,mainemaine and the extra TANHUIKAI who has been my friends for 5 years (:(:(:(:(: , heartaches,friends problem-they have been there and been my shelter and pillar.they hear me,talk to me and are trying to understand and trust me.i just love those kind of mutual trust that you all gives me.i apologise for some harsh words,but i just meant well,and we just all learnt and bond okay (: (: and oh ya more night talking session,i believe we'll just keep in contact as long as we lived de la ,<3>
new sports experience
i loved touch rugby,though i hate the muds but it brought me funs too :) :) :)
back to taekwondo
it's more tough and tiring,but i'll try my best okay MOON-NEY
new hair
can i cut short hair?
and oh ya, bastards are not included in my memory
those who know me best will understand which bastard am i talking bout.

weidong just told me something yesterday " it's been one year since i know you!"
and i asked so i good or bad.and he was like donno donno.i think it's just plain too many different feelings la which he doesn't want to talk about.it's alright. (:

okay, out with joannebiaojie yeaterday, like whoa, since after i post.not the bad eh!
acc to change her losuy phone's keypad,then had KFC.yummy yummy!she says i just gorge all the food in.wahahaha
then to repair my necklance.it's spoilt and i'm damn sad can.my amulet eh <3 ):
then then to ST.RICHIES HOTEL
i wanna to get marry there la.it's so nice and beautiful and the people are friendly and i love the toilet WAHAHAHA
then to shang,brought choco,actually it should be 6 for 13.90 but i got more than 10 pieces like 13?
wahahahhaha.
homesweethome.acc mummy to read books and sleep.
oh ya, i blur blur gong gong de sms weidong some stupid things which i don even understand.wee (: (:
alright,sorry no colour because my hand is oily,due to chicken wings!WANT? : P

bee.hankee.jinxuan

oh yo yi yo ho oh yo yi ya!
omg omg omg!
it's been so so so so so long since i blog.hope it's not dusty rusty and smelly :D
hmmmmm.
i don't know where,when and how to start.
but i can say that god has been real damn well and nice to me.
though i've been town-ing and vivocity-ing since 23rd,but each time i went there.it's just a different kind of feel.oh wells,though i'm sick and tired of that 2 places.

okay,i'll start with genting.eh eh.it's boring and not interesting.though i hangout with hankee and her cousins for a night.sing k and GOD,THAT'S THE FIRST TIME I HEAR HER SING CAN!
but as the days goes i almost died there.walked almost more than 10 rounds in first world shopping mall.watched 2 movies.no outdoor theme park.no indoor theme park either.i think the most interesting is WAHAHA-SCOLDING THE STAFFS IN PIZZA HUT!their attitude and service real SUCKS to core la!

then when i'm back will be bbq with B.F, celestine and well the other DB peoples.hmmm.i enjoyed myself.all the wat to ten mile.carry lots of stuffs.prepared all the foods.make a mess of my house kitchen.down to pit.started the fire.and that ZANDER was so slow.that we almost throw things at him.started to rain.and and.last but not least.FOOD was DELICIOUS!YUMMY

can't remember 22nd

23rd was day out with MAINEMAINE,KAI,RYUTA and MOON.actually it was supposed to be a class outing.but i cannot make it you cannot make it.so left 4 of us.then moon went off due to her eyes.tata was late.so left 3 of us.i swear i look STUPID.
because i was with make-up,dress and heels.walking around from DFS to ISETAN to TAKASHIMAYA and the weather was like RAINING!all thanks to my most beloved B.F.he wanna to buy things for his CELESTINE and i was made to follow.alright,i'm nice.so in the end got her the POLO RALPH which she wanted.but i wanna to complaint.B.F went REAL BROKE and she got him only a skinny!alright,i got no comment on it,but B.F was sad due to many many many other stuffs.
back to topic,then 3 of us went to HE SHE HUI for dinner.WHAOOO
the foods was nice.thumbsup. (: (:
drink again.

24th was with jinxuan and hankee.but i spent my time wiht shunhong first.and i let him wait for 2 hours.and he got me a RIPCURL WATCH-$199
i was freaked out.i guess other than PSP this is the most expensive gifts.and i love it <3
met hua to say hi and then jinxuan and hankee.
we went to vivo, to pass WEIYI her present and some gift exchange and of course my dinner
off to clark quey later,shopped around central and wanna to drink,but none wants to accept me ): cos miss pretty is still young (: (: (: (: (: (: (:
settle at ESKI BAR!the place is wonderful and it's not as cool as i though.i wore sleeveless mind you.and it thru-out the whole night!i had so much fun.
and my sister MS LYNETTE GOT DRUNK!stupiest girl i ever seen

25th was day-out with my malacca cousin.i wasn't suppose to be out but ya.no choice.shopped at AMK hub.and we just walked arounf aimlessly because i don't know what they really want.
and and and,i smsed MR WEIDONG for the whole afternoon,and he's mean with his words in the night.and he told me he's working in AMK CENTRAL and ask me to look for it.i was like well,crazy
DINNER-ED with family

26,27,28
was basically all out with friends,mummy,cousins
speaking of cousin,i actually miss MISS JOANNE AND YIWEN.haven't seen them for ages.
and 29th was wen's birthday <3<3

today was home home home.spending my time with laptop.watching GONG ZHU XIAOMEI!all i can say is "REBECCA,THIS IS REALITY,WAKE UP" i love the house,i love the clothings,i love the guys,i love the cars,and i just simply love everything.
i seriously hope that i can take part in that kind of acting production la.unlike local production,which is so UNROMANTIC!old actors,and they don't give people those dreamy feelings

received the most TOUCHING AND SWEET AND NICEST PARAGRAPH BY HANKEE TODAY
and here she goes
Rebecca

i don't know why, but i decided to post this up too!
i felt a little bit slut, because i felt desperate to find a boyfriend.
i don't know why, i already have got lots of love but i just need that extra one.
can somebody just tell me what wrong with me?
i guess i better stop watching dramas la,because whenever and forever, i'll fantasize and i need time to get out of it!

alright.and i'm sure and confirm they're back together.
100%
and the thingy is i don't feel hurt at all (:
so actually the crush is not at all that deep.see see

i wanna be bimbo.and i'm label by ms weiling xiaoma
and i told shunhonggege and enhuadar.
and honggege give me a kinda fierce talk la!
he was like,why really bother with beauty when you got both of it and inner is the most important thingy!
so i ask something which i don't remember.
oh,i asked so how important am i to you.
he was like very important.and i'm damn happy.at least,i'm really important in somebody's heart.and he rank me 3rd place!
1)his didi
2)something which he is still searching for
and
3)is BECCA

and i asked huadar the same question
and he rank me 2nd
WHY,BECAUSE
1)something he's still searching
2)BECCA
and he has no didi :D
that's what he claims la WAHAHAHA

i'm really really satisfied with these.really
but i just wan to make myself beautiful.and attractive.
i don't know why, but i've fallen in love with being looked at.it might just be some curse that someone just place it on me! ):

so where am i placed in your heart friends?

he's a jerk.i'm so glad that i never fall deep.
because they're back together.i'm so glad that i didn't tell him.i'm gad that i keep it well.
but i'm angry.
and i wanna to say.
"mr huang, you're such a bastard and you don't keep your promises.!"
ahem.can i scold f-you too?

WHY DOESN'T HE JUST GIVE ME BACK MY CONTAINER AND THINGS WILL BE DONE EASY!

can i just say, i hate you!

i shivered.i stunted.i smiled.i said hi.
i don't know why.but i'm extremely nervous but at the same time excited when i saw him.
he's always the centre of attraction.he's always with lots of people.
i looked like an auntie.drenched and with that 2 ugly bags.and being pestered by sean!
i really felt like die-ing.really.
why can't he appear when i look pretty and glamorous?
though he smiled back and said "eh,hie!"with this damn charming and sunshine smile.i felt like a shy little girl."hie!"and wanna to bury a hole like immediate
i lied to myself.
though i tried to hide my feeling away but it just seems clearer when his perfume travels to my nose and tap on the sensor.why can't he just return me my container.and allow me to get away from him.
i hate that lap pat sat advertisement.i hate it.i hate it when he says it but he don't keep his promises.why must he be so sweet and argh.never keep his promises?
it's kinda a terrible feeling la.
i know and understand why i felt guilty when i thought of fecing weidong.because.i did something worst than that.
actually i always wanted to tell him that.i don't know why he's alwasy been in my mind.must be all the guilt conscience.OHMY!

hortpark was so damn nice and interesting luh!took damn lots of pictures.alright alright.as usual.and the class happens to see it.and i totally felt red and hot.

met cheekee,celestine,debbie,that don't know what liang,nic and sherlyn.
they're nice.they always make me felt comfortable.
and lastly.today they helped me away from sean's demon talk
met beatrice.she talks to me.she approaches me telling me how sad and unhappy she is.
but as long as rebecca the new star is around.she'll feel happy (: (:
she say's i'm much more pretty when i'm single.and she says i'm glowing.and she says i'm more attracted.
but HELLO!the guy i crush on seems like he can't even be more bothered by me!and i don't even understand why that many many many things!

pictures are longed to be uploaded
song of the day:teardrops on my guitar

loves and kisses
beebee

today and yesterday is so super super uber contradicitng la.
yesterday was so nice and peaceful.today was filled with mountains and hills la.i didn't wanna to used ups and downs because it was worst than that.
alright.firstly
i woke up at 8 plus when i slept at 2 plus.
then packed then meet GLENNA.
i really felt that i can shit and wait for the train at the same time la.it's damn freaking long.then board it.and obstacles.
there's this fat woman with her children.it was already so packed.and i try to minimise the place already.but she kept stepping on my toes and squeeze me.no matter how much i "chek" her.she don't care la.lucky she got off fast.if not i'll scream her off la
finally reach and got off.and it was so bloody crowded la.
watched GOLDEN COMPASS and it's nice nice nice
shopped around.and settle down at coffee club.ccamwhore again.decided to upload later.
then then.finally i THOUGHT it's time to go for TAEKWONDO!
when i reach there.and tap out.there as no one there.so i saw moon's missed call.
and i DISCOVERED that, there's no TRAINING at all la.
bag weight a kilogram and together with glenna's going-to-return-cd
i really seriously terribly look like typical AH SOH LA!
i was really really really really pissed and feeling terrible la.
i could have attended gathering la!
and guess what someone told me"huh i just wake up and going to church now.sorry sorry didn't know you didn't know.cos i got this memory that you're there.so i though you know.since you're in merah you go find ck la.he over there.working!"
i really feel feel feel _________________________- this f angry la.
and i decided not to go tkd next saturday.though it seems that i'm petty but i'm not going to f-care la.!!!
i think today is really freaking and f- bad day okay
finally finished the only meal of my day and one more person started to nag at me again.
and he's my father.
guess what he nagged at me about.
he ask"so how long your never go ah ma house le?"
i was like "since that time dinner"
and he just started to rant at me la.like
"always go popo house.every saturday also go.never asked i also don know that your're this long never go ah ma house le.da yi come your already spent days there.now still go. and on and on and on!"
and i scream back."stop nagging and tell me can.it's not like i like to go and go.i never been there okay.and i just finished exams.and i had such a bad day.stop nagging and tell me all these can"
soon,he continued.
"and ah.i already said many time.no matter how angry you're don't point your fingers (index) and don't move your legs also!"
i was felt damn stupid can.who angry wouldn't have large actions.i also haven say you also la!there there there.now he goes again.always say i got bad temper and my marriage wouldn't last long.say that people wouldn't like me and hate me.this year 18 already.nobody likes no nei han de ren.

i feel like stabbing myself now!

woohoohoohoo (: (:
back feeling better.heart feeling slightly better.
i seriously felt embarrassed la.stupid horny kai "announce" to the class that i sprain my back!i felt like a small silly girl la.edmund ask " wha.you finally hui lai le ah" aiyoyo!
and and i'm so urgent to know my marks for DGA.that teacher damn chicken de la.say what it's inclusive of the homework.wonder how i fare!

slept till 10 plus and went back to school for chemistry practical.well well.before that had lunch and i saw chenfenling and zuzhenrong!
alright and i declare that chenfenling is betty boop.because she has got small head.weewee (: (:
but she's pretty and her surgery for double eye-lid are so well done la!

accompany huikai and mingyi.watching video-ocean eleven.oh well.the show was damn boring in at first and was exciting later.meet joannebiaojie and off home together.she got sore legs.wahaha.orbee.who ask la.wear new shoe never wax first! :D

moon-ey was so emo these few days.but i guess she'll be alright la!
cos she got me!wahaha
and and.
PAM and CHEMISTRY are coming near.super near.and and i shall start tmr.i must!
:) :) :)


i had a strange dream last night.i dream that he has patch back with his first love.i was shocked.and woken up by mummy.thanks goodness she did la!then i told moon-ey and cousin.and now.i'm feeling better.cos i guess maybe it's really just a moment of crush.and a moment of folly.maybe because i guess need someone to lend me his shoulder and rest on. that's why.ireally hope i will forget him real soon.

loves and kisses
beebee

ohmygodCAN!the stop-dreaming days are getting nearer and nearer!
i don't wanna to see him.i don't wanna to talk to him.cos i'll get real shy and my ear will be blasting red!really really!
i'm damnsilly i must say.though hankee was like expect the unexpected things to happen.follow my heart and do what i feel is right.i feel i'm hopless and i'm of no brain now!i need someone to tell me how he feels.i need someone to tell me what's the next steps.so i though maybe i shall just tell him:"hey,i got crush on you you know!"but on the second thought i myself felt retarded and sicko too!wahahahhaa! (: (:
and i seriously must say, he's one guy who gives empty promises!i swear
A/J J/A=angelina jolie?
crazy sickass?


mygod.

boo.
i didn't attend school today.cos i sprain my beautiful back again.
alright alright.i heard all the naggies already!let me go please.
wee.wee.wee
accompany mummy and aunt to see doc after i feel a lil bit better.did manicure.nice nice nice
i have beautiful nails now!and i'm pleased! (: (:
and i took lots of pictures.and i look normal.wahaha.yesyes.without doing anymore strain stuffs.i'm doing fine.

doc gave me 2 days mc.and i felt like.WHAO!i'm dead.escaped from test.and 2 more is coming.can i go get somemore!wahahah JOKING (: (:

i felt that i'm growing fatter!really.i'm on diet now.please no more sweet stuffs.

russel is on his enlightenment talk again.
my personal nick was:can star really glow forever?
and his replied was
"besides shining externally and physically, a star can also glow inside people and ur one of the star that shines ur light in people :)"
"dont need to thanks me, thanks urself"
"yes ur beautiful"
"not perfect yes but that what makes us beautiful, you can see the beauty within chaos"
"oh i tell u something ur beautiful as it is, nothing of u need to be altered, taken away or added"
"nah it was in u all the while"
"just making u be aware of it"
"just like a sleeping star awakened :)"

i'm really surprised by what he says la!am i really like that?
but he makes me love star even more

will you please explain to me what really and actually happen la?you're returning me the container tmr if i'm attending school.but i guess you'll forget again.i really hope you don't return it to me.because that seems to connect me to you again.some times sometimes.i can just message you for the sake of the container!omg omg!i must be mad.weiyi says maybe that's like a moment of crush.hm.i guess so too!

loves and kisses
beebee

HELLO EVERYBODY!
been the tour guide for the day!and it's such a damn pissing job.i swear!.i really respect tour guide now!though they're my cousins and my aunties and uncle.but they really pissed me to the core la!
OMG!my small boy cousins are nosiy and one of them almost trip me la.it's not that i don't like them or something.but it's just that i couldn't manage la.i almost ran straight back home okay!
had miscommunication with mummy and we somehow kinda unhappy with each other la! ): ):
but well,
at least things turn out to be fine a lil bit at one time.
first stop of the day-granny's house.
best lunch i ever had so far.as in compare to those in school.omg can.
curry chicken.duck.rice.vegetable.tonic soup.and blah blah blah.
and i snatch and got the duck drumstick.i'm the first person!
second stop-vivocity
there there there.actually nothing really la.seriously.around an hour plus we had it all shopped finish okay!the great thingy is that i saw adam-the sweetest friend (:
had this lil chat with xiaoweibiaojie in the train.she also asked me to take things easily!i guess that the only way now la!if i didn't happen to smell that smell-alike perfume i wouldn't ever thing of him la ): ):
third stop-town.
my cousin and aunt wanna to take pictures.can't be help.cos they travel all the way from malacca,other than attending wedding dinner, is to take pictures le.had lots of pictures took too!
mummy bought me a GUESS small bag!bought myseldf a short.and it only cost $13.90 la.
and i know what i going to get for my click-5.hankee and abby le (: (:

last but not least!
YONGJIASENIOR CALLED ME!
i almost jump up and down in the bus-stop okay!alright.i promise.if we ever go out again.i'll take his pictures!so long never contact me becasue he's so damn busy with his army stuffs.and he's going outfield again. ): ): i'm so sad!really really.he said he MISS MY VOICE LA!i miss his too!
i wanna to have sweet treats and wanna to talk to him bout him!he's the only one who know my sweet sweet preferences!miss him (:

i'm really damn sad la!i just saw his personal nick. "i love AJ"
omg!what does that means.i really couldn't figure it out la!armani jeans?or that girl name?i've never asked nor has he mention to me the girl name before!stupid girl right?hai!he's going to return to me my container on tueday.and guess i'll wake up from my dream on tuesday!i seriously hope i'll be able too.and he'll stop disturbing my life!idon't want to lose concentration of school work becaosue of him.though,i'm feeling sop terrible now.but there's nothing i can do seriously.i cna't confess to him like"i got slight crush on you!"that dumb!

loves and kisses
beebee

i tell you hor tell you hor!
i damn damn damn happy la!
my mummy bought me PSP SLIM!wahahahaha.
joyous happiness fufilment!at least this is the only thing that make me glow now!
at least this is the current issue that make me happy now.
though his personal nick:bored
i told him that i'm damn happy.but he didn't reply.so i really assume.i'm am being seen as extra to him.cos i no longer have the chance to walk thru the red veins of his.but who cares.
cos i'm getting my PSP later.wahahahhahahaha.
and daddy going to change new phone for me.together with mummy.we both going to have new phones.same phones.huge expenses sepnt.wanna to work.but but.even my sister also says "jiejie,i think you better don't work.cos you only inspire to wear high class office wear."and my mummy was like "ya.see your sis also know.and and.later i need to spend more money on you back!"
omg la omg la.i wanna to faint can!

i think rusell-replublic is like the best man in the world la!
he told me something JUST!
and i feel that it's something which awakens me.and put a stop to me for awhile
the sentence he asks me really makes me feel useless and put me on my thinking cap.
"do you know that you glow?don't you get burnt or get bbq?"though it's somehow kinda comical but still there's hidden meaning behind it.i mean that he's style la! (:
then i replied that "actually i wasn't growing these few days"
"what is happiness, can true happiness be really achieved? or is it just a universal dream everyone wishes"this sentence shocked me again
i sat down on the floor.silent and thought run through my brain.
beebee i don't understand! says:happiness can comes in many form
Rebecca says:or our happiness are actually 'fake happiness'?
beebee i don't understand! says:currently that's what happening to me now
Rebecca says:only u know what makes u glow
Rebecca says:find out the root cause of why the glow is dying
Rebecca says:and from there start a small fire, even the tinest speck of light shines in the darkness
beebee i don't understand! says:i know the root and i'm taking it out of me now
Rebecca says:just like a matchstick thrown into a fireplace, it doesnt burn fiercely immediately but it started small
Rebecca says:and then slowly the little flame grows into a fire

that is it.he's comical and he claims that he's rebecca who is me la!damn damn.alright (:
i'm feel like biting and punching somebody la!he caused all my troubles.i feel really hurt la that he doesn't talk to me now.as in i don't know why.it's kinda sudden!
who knows maybe that girl is back to his side.i'm used?