heyyo
batam-bye, singapore-hibatam was crazy alright.i woke up like at
5 plus to rush to take the ferry, but guess what, the ferry
leaves singapore at around
9.30 la!which is so like freaking late can!
RAH!
as usual, i saw hadsome guy in the ferry, and that guy eventually
"dian" me can!cos i feel the shocked in my heart :D:D wahahahahaha
but sadly, i got off first!
headed to the hotel and got fascinated by the place, pictures speaks a thousand words.
walk around, shop around.
the
zeros in the notes shocked me hell lot can.
can you imagine
100000=17 sin dollarshello, call me ms.billionairewahahahhahahahahaha.
had a small tan and guess what, i eventually tan with a tinny shark la!
SPA!so omg la, i felt
molested.my auntjennifer bluffs me can!
i thought it's in this
enclosed room, but no, it's in a
room facing the sea, with
wide open view and worst of all is that you'll be naked and fisherman can just drove past near and everything is like exposed la!
though they got curtains and my body has got no attractions and covered with cloth at times but
i'm still a girl alright.they eventually
scrub and
mask your whole body,
and i mean whole body!shall not emphasises anymore la! so embarrassing can
and i almost vomit out that disguisting ginger drink which mummy forces me to drink.
seafood dinner was so fulfullingnext day was a tour round the town, alright, nothing much to say
but i bought
2 ralph shirt.hello, real good stuffs okay.
real ones okay :D :Di felt sorry for my team mates la, cos i'm there enjoying my day in batam, they're busy training for ivp, tsk tsk.
but i seriously and really felt guilty and sorry la.but what done is done la.
we lost.i can't blame anybody because we ourselves seriously didn't train real hard la.
but i swear i'll not be reserve anymore.i thought, since i'm kinda new to this pattern and the rest are like better than me, so i give up my place.but i'm wrong.
i'll fight for it the next ivp, because i felt so left out.
the teammates of mine treat me as transparent can, they move on as 3, leave as 3.
hello, i train well and hard with you guys can!i'm human with feelings la.
bitch在一个圆圈里，坐在里面，人人围绕着你有如何！人人也会把你当透明，那末又何苦把自己放在里面！还是一样的孤独！do i really care, i ask myself.
i swear, i train hard and mad to become the
star player, and some of them believes i can do it, so what if the dream is still far away, i can't spar so pattern is the thing i look forward too!
went to marina square with them, stick with benjamin all the time.jingkai though we're together and lynette thought ben is wooing me.and i was like
"hello people, we grew up together!"moon's with the rest and so i thought the next best person i can with is ben, cos if not home is the best option.
had fun though.ate, chat talked, laughed
cabb-ed home
saturday was the rotting day.can't stand the way my grandma talks can, thought she's the elder, she's ill, she's not the queen.she can't use those demanding words to force people to do what she wants and mummy agrees with me la.
eg:
"sit at my sit so long, sit until hot hot, how am i going to sit on it?still don't know how to stand up ah!"she said it to mummy and i damn freaking angry can, that i stare at mummy and give up my place to mummy.and i told mummy
:"please don't use demanding words on me when you're old,i might just tickle you!"wahahahahsunday,ivp sparring last day.
reached, felt a little bit welcome but soon left out.
i don't know why, but i don't seems to really
click with anyone there, maybe because i'm kinda new to them or maybe i just plainly think soo much la.
i felt as i grew older, my communications skills sucks to the max can!i can't joke around like i do, i can't speak like i do!i felt so helpless!the sparring competition seriously make me 大开眼见啦！
the spirit, the screams, the kicks, the emotions, the ways of kickings, the ways of encountering, the claps and everything just inspires me to become a fighter, but seriously can i?i asked ben bout it and he was like
" it's not that easy to become a fighter!"moon
"please don't, your back is much more important!"daddy
"just don't do things that hurt yourself!i allow everything"mummy
"for what!bo liow"i adores the cheers, i like the attentionokay, i'm silly and dreams again!
headed down to kfc at jurong point, had so much fun chatting with the guys la, i laughed.
told moon,i'm heading to ben's house to take money.and she practically told everyone,as you know she's loud, everyone's there!,
"becca, so you going ben's house hor!i take 172 home!"i'm like fuck in my heart la!everyone just turn and look at me and stared at me and the next thing i know is
condoms, don't use too much energy and blah blah blah!RAH!helloo, i'm there to take money la!he's face red, my ear is freaking red too la!
RAHHHHHH!
something simple turns into something so complicated!
but anyway, talked and thoughted and understood things.
walked down the lrt road to the mac's toilet in fajar to ben's house.
everything's so not the same, everything is changing, the place i grew up with, the place i meet all my good buds, the place i played with jereme, the place the first guy told him he likes me, the place that has the most impact in me. is all changing.i don't know why, but i felt distant and yet fresh at the same time.i miss the place.and i seriously didn't know ben lives in the same block as jereme.damn!
ben brought his ice cream and i'm back home.
actually, both of my sisters are growing up too!i felt it today when i had a small talks with them.shall bring them out when they pissed me less one day!
ahahahahahaha!
i'm growing up, i'm much more senisible, with much more stubborn mindset, i wanna to change, cos i fet i'm still so impatience and not easy-going enough, there's the barrier, i need to overcome.who knows might be the big-aunt problem!i hate being a girl for that reason.
2007
2008
before to the destination, a picture is needed of course!
peace people yo
the duck-ey
