it's so hard to juggle between this and that
i need a supporting shoulder
the ear i want, i need is not in singapore now
i feel so helpless, i totally need advice.
sometimes when the truth surfaces, all i can do is to face it
however, it's never easy
having guarded all round, still must put on a strong front
assuming nothing happen and continue with life
is really not that easy anymore
family, friendship, love
can't find a balacing scale.
because of different situation, i can never be myself
i really wonder, when is the real me
im not that good girl, im that bitch-at-times.
having people assuming that im the angel, to me.
it's never a great thing.
it's kind of stressful that i need to hold up the front.
it's kind of stressful that you told me that.
really.
im sick. i need rest. i need peace.

thanks to these 3 particular person who listen to me. ( or see )

hello!

ohyesh! was out with mum on thursday
i really had a great day
becos i brought a walking bank out! hahahaha.

*shhh, don't tell her that.





im really pleased that day
because it's been so long since i last had good hair day
ever since i started internship
it's auntie-look to work each day!
all hair pulled to the back. hair is always tied up
becos the place is uberly warm, hot + humid!
grrr, just minus away that the people there are awesome!




ohgod ohgod!
just let me tell you people 1 secret.
ive always love mickeymouse since i was like 3?
when my dadi and mami got me these hugeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee mickey mouse from genting
well, it's guarding the storeroom now though!

storeroom mickey is like taller than me when i was 3?




i was really thrilled when mum discovered this mickey
which is sooooooooooo huggable from gift-a-name!
okay, for this I PAID FOR IT!






so crazy me started to have this idea
i mean i always treated mickey as my boyfriend!

hahahahaha.


* "ahhh, don't leave me." hugsss from the back. awesomely sweeta!
HAHAHAHA. okay, im not mad!

hello

days are boring as usual
just that i actually have some sneakout

with chloesexy to watch The time traveller's wife
& i really wanna cry
okay, i sniffer
no matter how unreal it's gonna be
it really touches my heart
& i hope it's not chloe beside me ( like how she wish it wasn't me as well!) HAHAHAHAHA

and oh, before that
i had a meet up with stripper ( oh yes, he does striptease!)
i gave him his birthday present and he gave me a treat to swensens!
ohgod, the ice cream buffet is really a die-hard-must-try!
we had so much fun sharing ice cream
me getting weird faces while doing the foundue!
awesome! really.

ERIN, I WILL BRING YOU THERE WHEN YOU'RE BACK OKAY!

had a chance to grab xianglin too.
so we had food at The Indulge and we caught Gamer
it is not as nice as i thought!
sad-ed

and finally
i had some meet up with enhua and vanessa!
did some IPL and headed off to town
did our nails
although i was a little bit relunctant, a little bit regretted
but
comeon rebecca soh ling hui! the colour you chose is NEON ORANGEY RED!
The Ugly Truth is the next movie i had THIS WEEK
oh my goodness!
i was laughing nonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn stop at
it was so hilarious

THE UGLY TRUTH IS THE REAL TRUTH
ISN'T IT?
the show just speaks the real damn thing about guys and yes, girls!







just plainly look at my tired eyes with my uber fantastic nails
I REALLY REALLY REALLY PITY MY EYES OKAY!
OKAY, HEAD TOO!

im like the wonderwoman of the day
really

i didn't know that actually inside me, i do have physical strength
because since young and due to takewondo,
ive got weak arms and strong legs!

i packed the whole area of containers
all sizes, you name it they have it
i carried like lots of packed of small stones
i think they are like 10KG?

AND IM THE BOSS OF 1 SABAH WORKER
who is 19 too!
cool right

he was like laughing at me
when i was rearanging and packing the stones!
okay, maybe i look comical with that face
trying so hard to pull and move the stones and containers!
ohgosh!

im feeling so weak and tired now!
and it's raining now.
all the more i pray for a bed that i can lie on
and a toilet that i can bath in.






i was feeling so down then
but im getting better
know why, because even the reserve battery cell is almost down


xoxo
R

when i discover that you're still in me, there is no way i can let others in

hello

im getting more and more adapt to candy floriculture now
maybe it's not really the peak period, thus im kinda slack
a little bit?
but still i did try to help out here and there

getting out of my comfort zone is the victory for success
i feel that coming onto me
i feel that im going out of my comfort zone to do things now.
i don't really feel like complaining on how things are going on
althugh i do, when it comes to being warm and hot and dusty.
but weather is like that, what to do?

since young, wheneve i feel stress or uncomfortable
i will just fall ill.
flu, cough, headache. what you can name, i might have it before.
2nd week of work, ive got headache and flu.
i couldn't sleep the night before.
i took mc.
and once i took mc, i recovered. ( except for headache! )
maybe it's all psychological.
because i don't wanna work and wake up so early.
that's why im sick.

mmm,
i must grow. so that i can learn
im not that princess in my family anymore.
i mean i can't be the princess anymore
i must endure thru this 6 months and prove to dad that i make the right decisions
and to my friends that im not the bimbo anymore!

ohhh, i happen to be friends with my boss's son!
kind of cool
he's nice! hahaha.
and we're meeting for dinner and movie tmrrr!
pretty excited!



xoxo
R



xianglin jia you! i believe you can de la!
you just need to see me to relax your mental self!
bernice jia you! your kneecap need my sweet-o-plaster to recover!
garrick jia you! you need a punch from me! hahahaha

hello,

work-home-tv-sleep
and the cycles goes over and over again.
so actually there is nothing much i can blog about.

except that on my first off day- friday
went ion with mum
that's the good thing about shopping with mum
CAN BUY LOTS AND LOTS OF STUFFS
hahahahahaha
AWESOME

saturday
met zhufamily+yun for dinner
mmmm, kinda soso

sunday
off day again.
yawn. im so sleepy. still.
im sorry erin.
when im online, you're not.
mum drag me to 3rd uncle's house and to market.
AND THE NEW DOG IN THEIR HOUSE IS SO ADORABLE
it seems to be from circus. keep jumping around. and bite me. kiddy bites.


goodbye. wouldn't be updating so frequently.

the weather is soooooooooooo nice today.
<3 it much much


XOXO
R