REBECCA SOH LING HUI
APRIL 14 1990
NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC
loves fangs
loves smiles
This is my "depressed stance." When you're depressed, it makes a lot of difference how you stand.
The worst thing you can do is straighten up and hold your head high because then you'll start to feel better.
If you're going to get any joy out of being depressed, you've got to stand like this. ~Charlie Brown
INFORMATION
lil space of Queenb.
TAGBOARD
let me listen to you.
AFFILIATES
the big big world.
erin
isabel
shunhong
vanessa
weilin
yijie
dalton soh
weiyi
kim
andy teo
fatin
jialing
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May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
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October 2009
November 2009
December 2009
isabel
shunhong
vanessa
weilin
yijie
dalton soh
weiyi
kim
andy teo
fatin
jialing
REMINISCENCE
flashbacks.
CREDITS
spontaneous applause.
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Friday, October 30, 2009
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Time : 10:13 PM I walk and walk and walk Since even the bus wants to bully me Bring it on. I walk and walk and walk From hillview back to teckwhye After 50 mins, i realise how tired it is. I walk and walk and walk I discover that ive lost myself Idk what i want, idk what they want from me. I walk and walk and walk My mind is blank I walk past countless of bus-stops Countless of cars drive past me Idk what i was doing. I walk and walk and walk I wonder and ponder who to call to share my sorrows And i discover i no longer wants to trouble people. I walk and walk and walk I thought, why am i doing this to myself Why did i even become so fussy and stubborn and not wanting to bow to fate and make life easier? I walk and walk and walk I reached home Idk how i did that Oh, i board a bus, 2 stops away from my house. I walk and walk and walk I no longer wants to talk about it Everything. It's helpless till i get myself out. When i finally reach my destination, I discover that i don't even know who i was. Im filled with no tears. Good night, Happy halloween. |
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Thursday, October 29, 2009
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Time : 10:09 PM hello. After posting the post, i took a bus ride home. I was thinking about how my day went by. And i felt angry about myself and yet-devasted. If i were to be less careless, i would have less injuries. If i were to be more smart, i would have know what to do. If i were to take note of my surrounding, i would have survived better. I really wonder why am i suffering like that now. In order to have a better concentration on work, i rejected going to halloween party with chloe. I've the right to play. Im at the age to play now. I feel so old now. It's less than 4 mths now. But it really seeems like 4years to me now. It's a hurdle. I've never felt so suffocated before. Normally i'll just look in the mirror and smile and cheer myself up. But i can't seem to smile now. Why is life so hard for me now, Why must be in this company. I shouldn't change at all. Being a dark black 'bangala' worker might be far better off the cheap slave, at least, im still treated like human, i guess. Pathetic. |
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Time : 6:20 PM hello. sometimes when life is already going all so wrong, things goes more wrong to go against you even more. how is it going to make it right when it's so hard to correct it. life is not just grey, but black totally to the max max. 1.bag is heavy to the maxmax everyday. 2. couldn't get things right ever since early in the morning. 3. got pricked by catcus. 4. no more in flower arrangement sector, got send to Hortpark for Clean and Green Week. 5. there goes my off day for friday. striaght 8days before the next off day! 6. up and down the slope with the heavy trolley with the stomach growling like mad, 8 times? 7. got cut by some damn wire- deepcut. 8. got cut AGAIN by some things idk what. 9. got knock by the ladder and GOT CUT AGAINNNNNNNNNNN!! 10. had to run around like mad for 1 hour plus to pack again for the things tmr, not saying that im doing it all ALONE! fine, it doesn't matter 11. once im out the MOSQUITOES hit on me like some mad shit ferrari! i swear there are more than 10 bites! please let me have dengue! GRRRR 12. ive got to face someone with a damn black face. like it's my fault. whatever! 13. even the bloody hell trolley is not working with me! 14. im sick and tired. hands trembling like mad. and now! it's 630, im going home now. what shall i do in future? there are not much guy who is nice and with stable income, so that i can just stay at home and be a housewife. hell to life. R |
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Monday, October 26, 2009
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Time : 2:51 PM Hello! it's been soooo long since i even properly blog about everything life has been so messed up. totally. enhua's gone he's gone to somwhere near Los for his army training we met up yesterday and i passed him the gifts i got for him it's kinda sad, and a little get to the fact that he's gonna be away for a month. and when i spilled my ribena today, i just discovered how careless and not sensitive enough im, always no matter what i do or say, at times i never just think it thru and that's how i offend people or even hurt them how awesome and how i rely on enhua and shunhong. no matter how old i gets, i need them in my life. so i will just await for his return. 1 month gonna pass by fast. *beware pictures heavy some memories of what ive been doing recently other than the boring old rants about attachement. oh lord! 
 finally, ive got back my lashes oh lashes, i miss you so. 
hang out with tingsin just random meet-ups!
i <3> i dk why.
i guess i will take like more than 2 hours to get my make up and hair done and i will like go right in front of the mirror.
look look, don't question me. now i understand why ive got high forehead the blood in me, the genes in me father's side: my ancestors are mainly from china. people in the past in china have got high forehead as well my grandpa, my dad all have high forehead! it symbolises clever! mother's side:
my great grandma is a paranakan, although not close, cos most of the time i don't understand what she's talking about but it symbolises pretty! hahahaha. now i love my forehead!
i told tingsin, im soooooooo going to ask my husband in future to get me some really crafty jewllery. like those the paranankan have.
i loveeee the watch weidong got for me. i dare not bring it to work i treasure it like my baby!
this is the first centrepiece i done in attachment. *ahem they praise me for it okay!
we headed off to marina barrage. to fly kites
that's the mario victory pose 
if you are looking for kites that are cheap and from realiable shop. 
http://www.buy-kites.blogspot.com/ okayy!
 and meet-up with my BUDDY SISTERSSSS
ENJOY xoxo R |
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Tuesday, October 20, 2009
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Time : 11:48 AM so when will justice be by my side over again? why is this happening. faster, time past faster please! everyday i hope tmr is chinese new year but christmas is not even here yet. im so tired ranting each day! the same thing, over and over again! tsk. |
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Sunday, October 18, 2009
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Time : 5:01 PM you can never tell how excited im when i saw the caller ID the uber funny name that blinks on my phone makes me jump and it's like no matter what i must answer the call! however, it's nice hearing the voice however not with the bad news! grrr xoxo R im uber happy today. it's beyond words of expression. |
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Friday, October 16, 2009
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Time : 1:52 PM hello. aw, how sweet. im gonna meet my primary school buddy sisters later on! but before that im gonna visit chloe in takashimaya and get some stuffs for --! (can't name. it's meant to be a surprise!) im kinda looking forward to each off days how awesome isn't it. now i truly understand the life of the working adults. im gonna to find a job which i truly love so i wouldn't get myself into some deep unhappy working life shit! oh yes, everybody must do too xoxo r |
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Thursday, October 15, 2009
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Time : 11:37 AM  while i was in the bus today i saw the seawave of clouds and the brightbright sun. how i wish i was in the meadow, stepping on the soft green grass, plucking those colourful flowers. over and over again. with the sunrays, shining at the beautiful sight. ahhh! marvellous is what i called. the smell of the rain clean and fresh. -- it was exciting to see how things goes just like i want it to be. however, some dumbass just don't! -- had been slacking for these past 2-3 days because the lady boss is not around the stress level is greatly reduce to almost zero! had been hanging out with enhua and his group of army friends. they're really damn hilarious and fun to be i really must thank them each, because they totally have lighten up my mood. i just feel like the typical poly students holding the laptop walking around town after school and not an internship student walking around town after work. spot the difference? im really glad that each day that passed by it means im one day nearer to the end of internship. and it's my pull to work each day. -- urgh, im so so uber sad because enhua is going to USA for his training soon it means one less person 1 can talk to 1 less person i can complain and whine things about to 1 less person whom i can watch movie with and what's worst is that he said he is not going to contact me anymore when he's back from USA! im even more sad about that! and i really don't understand why. no! im still going to pester him no matter what! he's always so nice and sweet. whenever i need him, he's there. im so not going to lose this brother of mine! -- im going to buy my fake eyelashes again! i really look ohgodugly! without them! and i really miss those eyelashes! awwww. my eye is damn itchy and dry AND IDK WHY. i want to go home mummy! The vampire diaries and true blood are one damn goodness show you must watch other than gossip girls :D xxo R |
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Saturday, October 10, 2009
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Time : 1:53 PM that is damn sad! when i feel i see a bright ray of sunshine a dark cloud purposely must block my light! that's it. im soooo wanna scream right now! |
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Time : 10:55 AM hello! i had been dealing with my emotional side for quite a while i have been holding back those tears because after a long tiring day i always have got friends whom are there to let me complain to. they just listened to me and some gives advices however, today at work might be the weather or whatsoever i just feel lighter. idk why. maybe it's the tap on my back kai gave to me, or that ' i know you're not doing well' by hong yesterday those cares are so touching. im really touched so i really hold back my tears when i looked at them. i really don't want to have this huge break down in front of hong again. it's so embarrassing! hahahaha but why am i feeling this way, is the answer i can never find out. tell me please? and he called me yesterday from camp 4 drops of tears just dropped by to say hello! hahaha. ya, but im surprised that he called and i just feel warm inside out. yesterday was really just one heart-warming day! see, that's the thing. . . . . . - people around me are having relationship problem too! and often i see this word PLATONIC relationship so what is platonic? "pertaining to, involving, or characterized by Platonic love as a striving toward love of spiritual or ideal beauty." WHAT? I STILL DON'T UNDERSTAND! ENLIGHTEN ME PLEASE SOMEONE! i seriously don't understand why love cannot be like last time *LONGLONG TIME AGO. don't people know that love are hard to come by tsktsktsk don't they know that love is such sacred matter just like marriage * okay, divorce! this is just so heart-breaking. that is why, im always clear minded about relationship till idk how to differentiate between like or don't like!  oh god! im so in love with this bag that it's a diedie i want you! redred, i will see you soon in my mailbox okay! hahahahahahahaha. xoxo R |
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Friday, October 09, 2009
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Time : 1:00 PM HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHLOE DARLING! it's really really really nice knowing you so instead of hating the FOC, i must feel blessed because of FOC i get to know you! you're really awesomely sweet! and i believe that the right guy will come by damn soon? and please GOD BLESS US that we'll stop meeting jerks! hello!  met enhua for dinner @ ASTONS on friday after workcomplain-ed non-stop to him while eating. ( i know, bad for digestion! but who cares!) walked around town got a reallllllyyyyyyyyy small bag! and he got me a sunglass which i really wanted and im damn happy  i brought chloe to ASTON for lunch as well. and we really talked and gossiped alot as usual! and each of us bought a book. i bought MAN MANAGEMENT, OVER 350 WAYS TO GET THE MOST FROM YOUR MAN and she bought WHAT WOMEN DON'T KNOW ABOUT MEN, LOVE AND SEX! okay, we're kinda crazy?  and next we camwhore-ed everywhere and search high and low for The Battle box idk, but i find the place quite cool but she thinks it's kinda boring cos the person is naggy! and she is scared of the bomb sound! hahahaha. so cute. and and we got lost in Fort canning and we couldn't find the REGISTRY OF MARRIAGE! hahahahaha. don't ask me why we went there we just want to get some feel! :D totally marvellous! had YOGA, and i guess that's the place i dropped my $50 bucks! * YESSSS, I LOST MY $50 BUCKS! that is why my mood now is also sucks to the maxmax. bought a dress and put it on immediately off to esplanade for sweet treat! her treat (: and flyer the next time, ya? met hua for dinner watched ACCIDENT oh well, so so only. the show louis khoo act in is like so so only. the OVERHEARD also *yesyes, i know. only fact that he's damn shuai is a plus factor!    xoxo R zomg! he texted me! |
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Wednesday, October 07, 2009
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Time : 1:05 PM The more im at the seat, The more i face the computer, The more i look at how the work is not approve, The more i get reprimmanded, The more i feel like getting up, throw the chair and walk off. The more i hate this line. This is worst than schooling. Im getting into some grumpy old lady being unhappy each day. It's so hard. it's reallllly so hard. |
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Tuesday, October 06, 2009
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Time : 9:51 PM hello! im really really sad. because all my bestfriend, the one who makes me feel 'irritating' is a good word + the one who always scold me crazy are ALL going into Army. more or less today+tomorrow! *screams! yes, i couldn't really take it and idk why. i just feel part of me is gone. i really cannot imagine huikai, shunhong, ahpui, chuan and weidong going into army as well i feel so helpless. oh god! why am i feeling this way! work is really, idk what to say i can't say much grrr never mind, the people are nice time will pass and soon, it will be 6 month right i promise dajin i will scold A. and that's it. i will! (:  READ: VALENTINO! * i hear you. totally, dadi got us ( me+mum+lynette) valentino creations bag okay, i know valentino but not really valentino creations but whatever it is it's pretty it's sexy it's expensive catch me with the bag! chloe might be the first one to catch the glimpse of it! hahahaha cos im meeting her on THURSDAY! aw, finally  I HEAR YOU! YES, IT'S THE NEWYORKNEWYORK YANKEE BURGER it's soooooooooooooooo huge and i share it with bestfriend! but still, 1 section is enough! * carbo sugar FATS!  okay, i really have got hugeeeeeeeeeeeeeee mouth i already stuff them in really, im biting it! the bread + the meat! hahhahaha it taste kinda nice though  see, aiyapeople act si wen i just whole up the whole section and chop it off away! * lalalalalallala  YES, JOANNE IS THE ONE TAKING IT! (:  OKAY, I HEAR OLDDDDDDDDDDD SCHOOL! so how long have you not hold a matchstick! i love matchstick. i feel that looking at how the fire burns the wood. it's like how love burns with humans IT'S THE MID -AUTUMN FESTIVAL ya, im supposed to spend it with vanessa and weilin sorry! it's 15th. it's time for family thus, i shake to my ahma's house called her and asked her to cook me my favouite soupppppppppp! *slurps  im the oldest grandchild. look, these 2 are my small cousins they listened to me COS I DEMAND! HAHAHAHAHA our age differences are like left: 14YEARS OLD right: 12YEARSOLD? oh god! i reallllllllllyyyyy feel soooooooo old.  the lil cousin of mine ( siying ) said this when she saw this picture siying: this picture no me! me: got! look here siying: no , don't have. i cannot see my face! me: HAHAHAHAHAH! see, so young already sooooooooooo vain. she LOVES pink too.  sweet angel :D     don't be deceive by her angelic sweet face.she's one stubborn girl! super!  that's about it! MOON, THANKS FOR THE COMFORT BOOK AND LIPGLOSS! :D I WILL USE IT AND TAKE A PICTURE TO SHOW YOUUUUUUUUUU XOXO R don't ask me why becos often in life, there's no way things just happened that way you did a part by allowing me t forget about him however you did a part by making me feel sad as well those times you cut me off, because of messages and phonecalls just get on my nerves and yes. it doesn't matter anymore. because i wouldn't have the chance to see you again goodbye and take care. i know, i don't take those that are in front me. but i rather prick on the thorns of love. |
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Monday, October 05, 2009
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Time : 9:23 AM heyy, For those of you who knows me really well should know that im not those really damn patience kind. i want to get things fast and quick. less dilly dally, because i can use those time to do some other stuffs! Yes, that's why i don't really have a very good temper. But i really swear i really did curb my tempers already in work. However, this particular classmate of mine is really driving me nuts. when everybody is scare or wonder why is he like that. (he kinds of talk to himself, laugh himself and touch his private part!) YES I KNOW, GROSS! i explain things to them to let them have less misunderstanding towards him. but he does nothing in work, he just walk around and when i asked him to do something which he didn't really complete. HE JUST WALK AWAY AND TOLD THE MANAGER HE HAS GOT NOTHING TO DO! I watered the plants and sweep the floor by myself. I really rather do things myself then asks him to do! Totally pissed to the max max!! |
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Time : 9:19 AM HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANKEE you never know how awesome our friendship are. im really happy for her. because after so many things she has been thru. now, she has got a really nice bf, a really fantastic bunch of friends ( us, of course ) and a very caring family. Hope she did enjoy her bdae celebration yesterday. And everything will be a blast for her. AND OF COURSE LOVE YOU MANYMANY YEARS! Im really glad i made up with A! hahahaha xoxo r |
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Thursday, October 01, 2009
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Time : 9:55 PM hello, im kinda stuck at home for two whole days because i am sick. it seems like i just can't get over my princess life. well, i hang out with enhua he's always there when i needed him. & his army friends are all pretty nice to me as well. and they praised me, which really brings me to the moon! im done with hankee's birthday guestbook by myself i spent like many hours on it, and im pretty happy with the results supposingly i should be doing that with A, but i still feel the tension becos that is the first time she is so fierce with me & i kind of got frightened!. i know she might be reading this but i just wanna say that "it wasn't all my fault! it's miscommunication and i find it unfair that you blame it all on me. still girlfriends?" my lappy keeps hanging on me recently. badly need to know the results. cos im angry with it! im slamming on each letters that i type for this whole post! grrr, had been cooking dinner for me+sisters for two days! xoxo r |
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Time : 2:06 AM hello, i am bella, because im a trouble-magnet and the person who name me bella is my acting-edward he say he will take care of me till i found my real edward. hahahah! how sweet right okay, he's just a poor soul. whom i really want to be with him to go through his love sorrows. girls are just his Achilles heels. thanks for checking out on me friends, guess im great. just smile and tell the world: " im fine" can't be another better solution right! Try If i walk would you run If i stop would you come If i say you're the one would you believe me If i ask you to stay would you show me the way Tell me what to say so you don't leave me The world is catching up to you While your running away to chase your dream It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change And maybe i'm not ready Chorus But i'm trying for your loveI can hide up above I will try for your love We've been hiding enough If i sing you a song would you sing along Or wait till i'm gone, oh how we push and pull If i give you my heart would you just play the part Or tell me it's the start of something beautiful Am i catching up to you While your running away, to chase your dreams It's time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change And maybe i'm not ready Chorus But i'm trying for your love I can hide up above I will try for your love We've been hiding enough I will try for your love I can hide up above 2x huh huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh huh huhhh If i walk would you run If i stop would you come If i say you're the one would you believe me by Asher book in Fame xoxo R |
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